may 16th-older parents and dreams of car accidents

I hate the fact that Judy,  Tony,  Don,  susie and Mike and I are getting older.

On our way home, mom went the wrong way on ih 65.  She went 65 west instead of 65 east.  While she was trying to turn around on market street,  she got shook up and stopped paying attention and hit someone.

Because I was not with her, she got into an accident.   If I told her no follow me, she would have been okay.

Thus is what worried me the most about herror driving.  This has been coming.  I knew it, I knew it....I had dreams about running into a car, a green car. Or a green card headed at me.

I want my guides to tell me things and then I don't listen or take it seriously.   I'm sorry guides...I'll try better to listen.

It also makes me wonder if a spell i worked about people's jealousy and my family included judi and her jealousy.

I have a wonderful husband.  I have financial security for now.  I have a newer home, that she helped to purchase....and what she does not think she has.

I have to keep that in mind, she has the narcissistic characteristics and she tries but the characteristics still show their ugly head.

Just got word that her truck is slightly damaged.   She is shook up and mad at herself.  She is thinking, when and how am I going to tell tony?

All the money I just spent.  Are they going to drop me?

I'm not going to take what happened as my fault.  She is a grown woman, she has to pay attention.  This is not Mike s fault either.

Thank you God! !!!  I'm not ready to lose her yet.

little something for me.

I'm a bit worried.  Someone close to me is bringing me something from key west while they were on vacation.

It has me worried because this person has not been kind to me.

She has been in front of others and pretends, but in her heart she is hateful petty and jealous of me and mine.

Ever since 2009, when they took tear first Td i0, I've had something strange going on.  I've been told that is a demon sent to me to cause havoc and pain.  She does not want me to be part of her favorites life.  Never has wanted it.

Mike has been very gracious and let me purchase a house in in Tennessee.   She is beside herself and MUS see me before we leave for Tennessee.   It sounds paranoid, I know, but I don't trust her.
It was said that she went off by herself to so some shopping and all of a sudden, I've started drinking again, my numbers are out of contol, Mike and I are at each others throats and very impatient with each other.  To the point, I don't want him here.   Justin is acting up too...he saw the key to locker room, but can't remember.

Now I have a little something she is going to give me.  I have to leave it here.   I have to put if in the river and keep it here.  Just have to figure out how to do it.

I do not want anything from her to follow me to Texas,  not even her memory.

She thinks about me all the time.  I don't.   When I leave, I want the Mississippi far between us.

Again I know this is paranoid, but it is the only explanation I have.

I'm so tired of this game.

Frus

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What a way to die...5\2\14

My sister has been going thru a hard time with her husbands family.

Same family just different last name.  We are all the same.

The mother in law, who my sister has been taking care of for the last 11 years off and on was put in a nursing home the end of March, right after her birthday.  Exactly 30 days to drop off the MIL stopped living or wanting to live and she died a week later.

Unfortunately, the woman had money and was well past her 80s, so everyone was waiting for her to die. 

I can't remember how many kids she had, but my sister was the only person who truly cared for her and now she has guilt because she cared and no one else did, not even her husband.

My sister is a raging alcoholic, she is back on the beer tonight.  She admitted it. But she is in so much pain and anger that she cannot get past the guilt or sadness.

She is, in my opinion à bit bipolar and a raging narcissists who married an even bigger narcissists.  She has done a lot for his family and not been given one ounce of credit, but with that said, she has done and said some things that warrant their opinions.

Kettle calling the other black because I have done some things and said some things as well.  I've apologized and tried to fit in, but square does not fit round, no matter how hard you try to shave off the edges.

She wants support, but she is so wrapped up in the "all about me" she cannot get past the rest of it.

I can honestly say the day I forgave all of it,every last bit of it, including me and my part in all of it, I have become a much happier person.

Now that the mil is cremated, they have her in the house...strange things are going on.  The mil is still
Trying to get attention.  Try to help, bit no it is okay, we will continue to live this way.  Okay...I guess.  Biut how is it working for you?

Unfortunately, narcissistic people cannot get past their own issues much less help get past others.  You are okay as long as your stuff is no where near as sad or important as theirs.

God love her...some one needs to.

Frustrated in bathtub full of cold water.