Friday, May 16, 2014

may 16th-older parents and dreams of car accidents

I hate the fact that Judy,  Tony,  Don,  susie and Mike and I are getting older.

On our way home, mom went the wrong way on ih 65.  She went 65 west instead of 65 east.  While she was trying to turn around on market street,  she got shook up and stopped paying attention and hit someone.

Because I was not with her, she got into an accident.   If I told her no follow me, she would have been okay.

Thus is what worried me the most about herror driving.  This has been coming.  I knew it, I knew it....I had dreams about running into a car, a green car. Or a green card headed at me.

I want my guides to tell me things and then I don't listen or take it seriously.   I'm sorry guides...I'll try better to listen.

It also makes me wonder if a spell i worked about people's jealousy and my family included judi and her jealousy.

I have a wonderful husband.  I have financial security for now.  I have a newer home, that she helped to purchase....and what she does not think she has.

I have to keep that in mind, she has the narcissistic characteristics and she tries but the characteristics still show their ugly head.

Just got word that her truck is slightly damaged.   She is shook up and mad at herself.  She is thinking, when and how am I going to tell tony?

All the money I just spent.  Are they going to drop me?

I'm not going to take what happened as my fault.  She is a grown woman, she has to pay attention.  This is not Mike s fault either.

Thank you God! !!!  I'm not ready to lose her yet.


Tuesday, May 13, 2014

little something for me.

I'm a bit worried.  Someone close to me is bringing me something from key west while they were on vacation.

It has me worried because this person has not been kind to me.

She has been in front of others and pretends, but in her heart she is hateful petty and jealous of me and mine.

Ever since 2009, when they took tear first Td i0, I've had something strange going on.  I've been told that is a demon sent to me to cause havoc and pain.  She does not want me to be part of her favorites life.  Never has wanted it.

Mike has been very gracious and let me purchase a house in in Tennessee.   She is beside herself and MUS see me before we leave for Tennessee.   It sounds paranoid, I know, but I don't trust her.
It was said that she went off by herself to so some shopping and all of a sudden, I've started drinking again, my numbers are out of contol, Mike and I are at each others throats and very impatient with each other.  To the point, I don't want him here.   Justin is acting up too...he saw the key to locker room, but can't remember.

Now I have a little something she is going to give me.  I have to leave it here.   I have to put if in the river and keep it here.  Just have to figure out how to do it.

I do not want anything from her to follow me to Texas,  not even her memory.

She thinks about me all the time.  I don't.   When I leave, I want the Mississippi far between us.

Again I know this is paranoid, but it is the only explanation I have.

I'm so tired of this game.

Frus

St

Friday, May 2, 2014

What a way to die...5\2\14

My sister has been going thru a hard time with her husbands family.

Same family just different last name.  We are all the same.

The mother in law, who my sister has been taking care of for the last 11 years off and on was put in a nursing home the end of March, right after her birthday.  Exactly 30 days to drop off the MIL stopped living or wanting to live and she died a week later.

Unfortunately, the woman had money and was well past her 80s, so everyone was waiting for her to die. 

I can't remember how many kids she had, but my sister was the only person who truly cared for her and now she has guilt because she cared and no one else did, not even her husband.

My sister is a raging alcoholic, she is back on the beer tonight.  She admitted it. But she is in so much pain and anger that she cannot get past the guilt or sadness.

She is, in my opinion à bit bipolar and a raging narcissists who married an even bigger narcissists.  She has done a lot for his family and not been given one ounce of credit, but with that said, she has done and said some things that warrant their opinions.

Kettle calling the other black because I have done some things and said some things as well.  I've apologized and tried to fit in, but square does not fit round, no matter how hard you try to shave off the edges.

She wants support, but she is so wrapped up in the "all about me" she cannot get past the rest of it.

I can honestly say the day I forgave all of it,every last bit of it, including me and my part in all of it, I have become a much happier person.

Now that the mil is cremated, they have her in the house...strange things are going on.  The mil is still
Trying to get attention.  Try to help, bit no it is okay, we will continue to live this way.  Okay...I guess.  Biut how is it working for you?

Unfortunately, narcissistic people cannot get past their own issues much less help get past others.  You are okay as long as your stuff is no where near as sad or important as theirs.

God love her...some one needs to.

Frustrated in bathtub full of cold water.

Monday, April 21, 2014

Dream 4/21/14


Dream 4/21/14

Wow!  The last 4 days straight I have been dreaming about quilting.  Quilting, quilting, quilting all the time quilting.  I have been getting flashes of quilt blocks, patterns and projects.

I have also been working on baby quilts for Judi (mom) and she does not want me to do any thing fancy.  Just straight lines and simple designs.  She says that the quilts for baby's should be simple.  I really don't think that she understands the need for me to be creative, but I have to give into what I want and do what she wants, which is simple, safe and easy.

Judi's moto - keep it simple, keep it safe and most of all don't do more than you have too.

Also, tell them what they want to hear not what they need to hear!  Or don't tell at all.

She says that she will make me up applique squares, but what she wants, not what I want....frustrating when I do what she wants all the time!!!!!  Is that a daughter pleasing her mother or her mother being a control freak about EVERYTHING?!?!?!

But anyway, I've been dreaming of quilting and today was designing a quilt again and I can't remember, but I think it is telling me to keep quilting....and I am more at peace doing this type of work, no matter who or what it is for, I am at peace right now.

The house will close on the 29th (9 more days).

I think I'm going by today to see what was done.  Hopefully he has not locked the back door so I can get in.  Got to sign papers for Dawne today so that we can get the rest of this rolling with the house.

I just remembered part of my dream.

Judi has an old SINGER sewing table top.  Looks like she has cleaned it off.  I am really crossing my fingers that she will let me have it.  I have an antique / vintage singer sewing machine and treadle and table in one of my girl friends garages in Texas.  I wonder if she still has it for me.  She said she would keep it for me until I could get it.  I keep having this dream about this  machine.  I think I need to go get it when in Texas.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Dream 4/13/14

Little girl and little brother.  Little girl is adventurous, courageous and able and willing to do for herself and on her own.  She is taking care of her school work and doing a school project.  Watching over little brother.  They are outside working on her project.  Can't remember what the project is.

Little girl, dark haired.  Little boy, short and dark haired.

Living near water can't tell if it is seawater or lake water....but feels like seawater.  A quiet cove with a 50ft to 100ft white pier. 

Dad comes home.  He loves his little girl.  Gives her a surprise.  They are going to get a boat for the summer to use.

Her first thoughts are of taking it out on her own and being in charge of it.  She is scared to tell her dad or the man what she wants.  He hugs her and kisses her in a fatherly way so that they are close and he would do anything for her.

Flash to another dream where the person is looking for a certain something to wear.  The woman is going out with her husband and 2 other people.  She is worried that she will wear something to skimpy and to see through and they will see her scars around her stomach and private parts.

Her husband assures her that what she has on is fine and the other two people are ready to go, so hurry up and pick something.

Woke up at 12:32 with legs hurting and acid stomach.  Took two tyleol and a Q10 with a Pepsid.

Hot...in my room.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

What a Freaking REALLY!!! REALLY!!! day.

February 18, 2013:

Same situation as yesterday.  You are not good enough, you suck, I want my money back, I can't believe you stay in business, then he called my other client to find out where I was.

Wow!  What a freaking night mare.

Clients like this guy is the reason why I am out of the bookkeeping business.

15+ phone calls.  Each one of the phone calls getting worse and worse.

I did the work he asked me to, the problem was that on the original jump drive, I did not give him .pdf copies of the profit & loss reports.  My bad.   I tried to fix it, but because he was in such a tizzy, I accidently sent him the wrong data, AGAIN!  I did exactly what I hate doing, going to fast, trying to people please and get myself out of trouble.

In his box was the original documents he needed, including the PDF's (hard copy).  But he is just too lazy to go look in the box.

What I hate is that I then re-sent him the incorrect data file.  I should have sent him the data file from the 2013 Year End/QuickBooks/Joe Puente.  I sent him the Joe Puente file that was backed-up on 10/31/2013.  Which is a habit I got into when working with clients.  Because I was in a hurry, I did not dig deeper.  If I would have looked at the bank accounts I would have seen right then and there what I did.  I did have the correct file (s), the complete reconciled files, but on a different part of my portable hard drive. 

I screwed up 2 times, by getting him the information.  I did not screw up the information, regardless what he says.

The thing that floored me beyond belief was that he called Scott O'Connor of Hutto Fast Lube and yelled at him or told him what was going on between me and Joe.  Talk about unprofessional.  Scott O'Connor texted messaged me, stating that Joe was looking for me and that I had better return his phone call.

I politely asked Scott to back out of it, that what was going on between me and Joe, did not concern him and that I would appreciate him staying out of it.  Scott agreed.  Talk about running your mouth all over town, did not set well with me.  How childish.

What was even worse, was Joe demanded that I send him his information overnight.  I asked him if he was going to be at his office between 8 - 10:30 because the package was going to be delivered (guaranteed) by 10:30 and that he had to be there to sign for the package.  I was not going to leave the package at his door or have someone sign for it and be able to get to his vital information, that was the whole reason why I wanted to hand deliver it to him.  REALLY!!! REALLY!!

At 1:57pm on 2/18/2014, Scott O'Connor of Hutto Fast Lube 512-496-8042 text messaged me with the following statement:

Hutto Fast Lube:  "What is up with Joe.  He called me asking me to have you call."
Tonja Wheeler:  "I'm sorry he called you.  Please do not get involved.  What happens between me and Joe does not concern you.  I am dealing with personal issues right now.  My phone only works in town because the tower near my mothers house was hit by lighting.  I have very limited service right nie" (sent 2:14PM)

Tonja Wheeler:  "Now.  I just received all of his voice mails and I am not in a position to call him back."  (sent 2:15PM)

Tonja Wheeler:  "I will call him as soon as I have a working line."  (Sent 2:16PM)

Hutto Fast Lube:  "I agree.  Don't want any part of it."  (Sent 2:46PM)

Tonja Wheeler:  "Thank you.  I've done my job."  (Sent 2:50PM)



This is my copy of the e-mail sent to Joe on 2/18/2014 sent 4:54pm.
 
Tonja Wheeler
-----Original Message-----
From: Tonja <tonwheeler@aol.com>
To: jose <jose@austexappraisers.com>
Sent: Tue, Feb 18, 2014 4:54 pm
Subject: Re: Profit & Loss Reports for Your Companies

Joe:
 
1)  You are correct, the reports I attached to you in the Monday, February 17, 2014 e-mail are NOT correct. 
 
REASON:
When I would work on your books, I would back up your files to my portable hard drive.  When I received your messages yesterday that you did not have the information you needed, I went to my portable hard drive and pulled up JOE PUENTE file.  Which was last saved on October 2013, which is the P&L Reports you received yesterday and are now calling BS.
 
The file I should have gone to was 2013 Year End Files/Quickbook/Joe Puente to obtain the data that was entered and finalized on 12/31/2013 and those were the files that were sent on the original jump drive.  The problem with the first jump drive file, it did not have a digital (.pdf) copy of the Profit & Loss Reports. The P&L reports on the original jump drive are as of July 31, 2013.  You had asked that I e-mail those reports to you so that you and your CPA could review what I was doing.  Since I never heard another word from you, except to tell me you received them and you were looking at them.  Since I did not hear from you regarding the P&L reports as of 7/31/2013, I continued on with the data entry.
 
The P&L Reports as of 12/31/2013 were printed and I put them in your box for you to review when you returned from your travels.    What I should have done yesterday, Monday, February 17, 2013 was save a (.pdf) copy of the Profit & Loss Reports in my 2013 Year End Files/Quickbook/Joe Puente and send them to you instead of the BS P&L Reports you are currently looking at.  I agree, they are incorrect along with the 2nd jump drive (green & white) the one that was over night delivered to you on Tuesday, Feb 18, 2013 is no good to you for the reason explained above.
 
I put the correct information on Jump Drive 1.  I have put the information in your box.  I did my job completely, accurately and to the best of my ability given the information provided from your many bank statements and credit card statements.
 
Now, if you would like, after you review the attached Profit & Loss reports ending December 31, 2013, you will see that the Property Taxes paid in 2013 were recorded in 2013.  If you have property taxes that were paid in 2014, they will not reflect in the attached P&L reports because they were paid in 2014.
 
If you can give me more information as to how I butchered your books, please put your concerns in writing and I will try to address each accordingly.  At this point, I am so disappointed that you would jump to the conclusion that I would take what was not rightfully earned. That I would steal from you and do a half/baked job.  My reputation is just as valuable to me as yours is to you.  Scott would have never sent me to you if he thought less.   As far as I am concerned, my work is good.  It is correct and you NOW have what you need to give to your CPA.  If you would like, I have already re-downloaded a 3rd copy of the data files for you.  I can have them Fed-Ex to any address you deem fit.
 
2)  To address the multi-phone calls I received:
 
The reason why I had to call you from a Tennessee land line on Monday, February 17 to discuss the accounting issues, was because the Verizon/AT&T/cell tower was struck several times by lighting 2 weeks ago during a major storm.  Verizon/AT&T/cell tower is not due to be fixed for another 6 weeks. This means that I have spotty cell service at best.  Because my mother has Direct TV Internet, this is how I can send this e-mail to you. When I talked to you Monday on my cell phone, I was in Lewisburg, TN where I could get cell service.  I did not get the 6+ messages until 2:30 pm today, Tuesday, February 18, 2013 while in town to get prescriptions.  If I were you, I would be mad and upset because I would think the same thing you were saying.  I am/was not/will not ignore you.  When I did get your messages today, I was unable to return your phone calls due to the personal situation I was in.  After I called you to give you the Fed Ex Tracking number, I was driving home to my mother's house and lost sight in my left eye.  It went black.  I could not see to drive.  I was able to get to the local hospital which was two blocks from the Fed Ex drop off. 
 
It was determined that my blood pressure was up so high that a blood vessel in the back of my eye burst and it was bleeding.  The ER doctor was able to lower my BP and LUCKILY I will not loose my eye sight in my left eye. It was determined that my sudden rise in BP was a side affect from a steroid shot I received in January to help get over the flu/bronchitis.  It did not help that my diabetes numbers also shot to over 300 at the same time.  My mother/step-father had to come and get me from the hospital and I was not released until 2:30 am today.  I am still having difficulty reading clearly.  I can close my left eye and see with my right, but it is hazy.  I am not allowed to drive until next Monday after the eye doctor gives me clearance to drive and I have been advised to keep my sugars and BP down.  I was unable to make a call in the hospital, due to their rules and the only person(s) I could call was immediate family. 
 
I find it very un-nerving that you would contact Scott O'Connor to hunt me down. 
 
Lastly, due to the tone you took with me on Monday, February 17 and the 6+ calls after, accusing me of "butchering your books, doing a bad job and how can I stay in business for as long as I have with the way I conduct business" was totally un-called for!  Again, I have already verbally explained to you the situation with Jump Drive 1.  I tried to fix it with Jump Drive 2, which was Fed-Ex to you by the time I told you it would be delivered. You were not there to receive it.  It was then delivered to you later in the day.  I have explained the situation with Jump Drive 2, but I am willing, yet again to do right by you and deliver a third copy of the information to you.  Please let me know what address I can have Jump Drive 3.  I can have FED EX pick up from my current address and have it delivered to you.
 
My work was completed and accurate the day you last paid me and I would not have collected from you unless it was completed and accurate the day I delivered it to your offices.
 
Tonja Wheeler
 
-----Original Message-----
From: Jose Puente <jose@austexappraisers.com>
To: 'Tonja' <tonwheeler@aol.com>
Sent: Tue, Feb 18, 2014 2:22 pm
Subject: RE: Profit & Loss Reports for Your Companies

This is a BS answer


From: Tonja [mailto:tonwheeler@aol.com]
Sent: Monday, February 17, 2014 1:21 PM
To: jose@austexappraisers.com
Subject: Profit & Loss Reports for Your Companies
Joe:
 
Attached are the Profit & Loss reports for:
 
Aus-Tex
Jose & Rose Puente
RBJE Holdings
RJ Commercial Holdings
 
Each will show you exactly how much Profit was made and how much Expenses were incurred for each business.
 
Jose & Rose Puente reports shows you how much as a family you transferred from the companies, the ranch, investments and Rose's income and how much was spent against the money put in your bank account.
 
All information was pulled from your bank accounts and credit card statements and were put in the Standard Accounting System used by bookkeepers, accountants and CPA's.
 
The Excel file that is labeled "Estimated taxes PEP & PEASE J. Puente was an estimate I did this summer based on information of "IF" your company did "X" or "Y" in gross income.  I only left that information for "information" purposes.  IT has nothing to do with what was actually done in 2013.  It was a "IF" this happens, this is what "Could" happen.  I tried to explain it to you this summer.  This information should NOT be given to the CPA because he will not know what to do with it!
 
Again, if your CPA has any questions or if you have any questions regarding the "Profit & Loss" reports, I will be happy to visit with you in regards to the information.
 
I cannot tell you how much tax you owe because you have not asked me to do the tax returns.  The information I have provided you in the attached information is for the CPA.  PDF copies have been made of every piece of paper you have given me and it was copied in PDF form for the CPA so that if he needed a certain document, he could pull that information directly from the jump drive so that you would not have to go dig for it yourself.
 
Tonja Wheeler
 
2nd e-mail received from Joe Puente:
 
There are so many issues incorrect on your reports. You left out the real estate taxes on most or the amounts are incorrect. My income for austex is incorrect, This is a poor job on your part please return the fees have I paid you: you have not done your job. If you need the money that is a bad thing  you have not provided the the services I paid $6,000 for. I should not have to check your data to make sure it is correct. You have no same & I am telling everyone I know what you have have done to me. Answer the phone  
From: Tonja [mailto:tonwheeler@aol.com]
Sent: Monday, February 17, 2014 1:21 PM
To: jose@austexappraisers.com
Subject: Profit & Loss Reports for Your Companies
Joe:
 
Attached are the Profit & Loss reports for:
 
Aus-Tex
Jose & Rose Puente
RBJE Holdings
RJ Commercial Holdings
 
Each will show you exactly how much Profit was made and how much Expenses were incurred for each business.
 
Jose & Rose Puente reports shows you how much as a family you transferred from the companies, the ranch, investments and Rose's income and how much was spent against the money put in your bank account.
 
All information was pulled from your bank accounts and credit card statements and were put in the Standard Accounting System used by bookkeepers, accountants and CPA's.
 
The Excel file that is labeled "Estimated taxes PEP & PEASE J. Puente was an estimate I did this summer based on information of "IF" your company did "X" or "Y" in gross income.  I only left that information for "information" purposes.  IT has nothing to do with what was actually done in 2013.  It was a "IF" this happens, this is what "Could" happen.  I tried to explain it to you this summer.  This information should NOT be given to the CPA because he will not know what to do with it!
 
Again, if your CPA has any questions or if you have any questions regarding the "Profit & Loss" reports, I will be happy to visit with you in regards to the information.
 
I cannot tell you how much tax you owe because you have not asked me to do the tax returns.  The information I have provided you in the attached information is for the CPA.  PDF copies have been made of every piece of paper you have given me and it was copied in PDF form for the CPA so that if he needed a certain document, he could pull that information directly from the jump drive so that you would not have to go dig for it yourself.
 
Tonja Wheeler

Tuesday, Feb 18, 2014

Tuesday:  February 18, 2014

Hopefully today will be better than yesterday.  Had an ex-client tell me that I was worthless and that he spent a great deal of money on nothing.

Sorry to tell him, I'm not worthless and HE chose to spend that much  money, I did not twist his arm to do so and I did do the work he wanted.  He is just pissed off that I cannot, will not and am not going to give him what he wants in the form of how much tax he is going to have to pay the IRS.

I have butchered his books.  I am not so sure.  I have done accounting the same way for over 10 years.  I went back to school to make sure that I knew what I was doing, graduated with a degree in Managerial Accounting, SUM LADA to boot. 

He is upset because I did it right, it is now in writing and I'm not willing, will not change what I wrote for him.

I tried to apologize, but when he would not accept it and keep yelling, that just told me right then that he wanted to yell at me.

It does not matter, but when he called me worthless and that I butchered his work, it really hit a cord with me and I am not willing to deal with anyone who does that to me.  It may not be very professional not to call him back, but I will not be talked to by that one of voice.  I left the real job world because of it, to start my own company.

Before I went to bed last night, I said the Lords Night Prayer and asked the Lord to help me find an answer if I am doing the right thing.

I had a dream, Karen and Jill were in it and they were telling me I was doing okay.  That I needed to keep going on and that I am doing the right thing.  I felt comfortable and was able to sleep the rest of the night.  I received my answer through a dream from two ladies I value their opinion either in the real world or not.

I woke up feeling rested, comfortable and ready to move on.

If I do not hear from Joe again, I am okay with that.  In my mind I have completed my job.  I was paid for the job I did and if he did not understand the work and cannot articulate in a polite business tone what he wants, but all he wants to do is yell and tell me what a crap job I did, when he had ample time to ask questions, raise red flags and be generally lazy, then that is his problem not mine.

On several occasions, I asked him if he wanted to go over the work.  I told him that I was going to do this for that and he verbally agreed.  His work was relatively easy to understand and I could follow him like snail moving through the sand.  I did what he asked and there is nothing more I can do, especially 1800 miles away from him.

If he wants to rant and rave about me, then he can.  He cannot hurt me here.